wanna share with you a true story;

there's this girl called A.she used to be someone who is a positive-thinker.but as she got into a new school,she started to slack,started to think super negatively.she always thought that she suck in everything.she always thinks that she's the worse student in class,who dont even revise her work,only till exams came close.
she always shares everything with this boy called Z.she knew him through internet.she wanted to go to his school,but she failed to do so,for her running standard was of no standard to those students in his school.A and Z were always messaging each other whenever they could.then the both of them started to get closer and closer.they even mentioned that they do love one another almos every night,before they went to bed.it was like a routine.they were both always happy to get replies from the other party.
then came one saturday,when A went online.her nick meant something that really made Z feel so sad.Z said that he never understood why A was saying that all.then Z put his appearance as "away".A had this feeling that Z just wanted to ignore A.she feels that Z just really hates A already.
then in the afternoon of the same day,A sent message to Z,asking whether he still treated her as a friend.but Z did not reply.A felt so sad that she actually cried all the way till the second she wanted to leave home.A asked whether Z still cared for her.but all Z said was just "im not sure about that".A felt even more sad,and cried even harder.A didnt know what to do.she messaged Z a couple of smses.but Z did not even replied any of them.
now,A and Z are normal friends.but A felt that she still likes Z.she does not know what to do.she wants to contact Z every single day.but she worries if that would disturb Z.now what she plans to do is just not to msg Z at all.she wants to forget about Z.and she hopes that she will succeed.
A is just simply lost in this world.she does not know what else is the use of her phone.she does not know what else is the use of living.she does not know what to do now.she's completely full of emptiness.
she even plans to hate guys.for life.
she thinks that she's already hurt enough.
just over that small mistake.